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currently listening to

black and white,

mj

this message is about the gray.

i've only just realized

that the gray is crucial to acknowledge,

and in fact there's a lot more gray than anything else, really.

so much is painted in conceptual dichotomies,

light dark

lost found

blind see

saved unsaved

et cetera...

and along with them 

come the embedded implicit superiorities,

one over the other,

and along with that

comes the labels

and the chauvinism

innocent,

stinging.

the joke is

that such thinking is 

(in this life?)

in most ways a fallacy.

we, and our analyses

can only be regarded through many lenses,

a scale, even,

interconnected relational bonds,

gradient(ed).

there is so much deeper 

than black and white.

there are all of the grays, too.

i'm not arguing that the polars are not there

but i think there's a lot of stuff

or place

between them to occupy

and its hard

(impossible? 

unnecessary?

arrogant?

beyond us?)

to draw a line.

so,

on the one hand

i'm told that i'm free

yet i still live a life of 'sin'

and so what then?

am i just on the same journey

same struggle,

same jihad

as everybody else?

or at least,

there's no sinner versus sinless, right?

or,

what is love's polar opposite?

i guess many would name hate.

but beyond this,

aren't there mixtures?

or greater love,

lesser love?

by which i don't mean to initiate competition,

but simply that

you couldn't fairly take a life and 

bracket  it

(send it,

judge it),

in permanence

in one circle

or the other.

can't we move beyond

the dualistic narrow

and in the uncompleted yet-to-be-resolved mix

find security,

peace

or a gray that gets to close to it, at least.