.88 economy

currently listening to

everything is borrowed,

the streets

see

i'm entangled in this abyss

of misinformation

and patiently 

i'm waitin

i'm waitin to receive new revelation

while my mind is contemplatin

all these expectations

i'm chasin

racin

caught up in a scheme

chasin an american

dream

downward, inwardly

my soul begs

for remotiplicity of simplicity

rocked by the immutable

suitable

meet-ever-need god

like-a-seed god

planted organically

he speaks

to me

see he says seek ye first and hope for the kingdom

where poor needy and greedy people

stand in line beside one another

so not to blind one another

where the me-first mentality

and human traffiking

are replaced

for an unconditional embodiment

of his 

just

way

but like earthy

silent staring

at an empty canvas

begging for a response

begging for an artform less pursued

begging for something

out of nothing

sacred

a simple kind of being that dances

uninhibited

unrestricted

to the pulse within me

a being that radiates 

like the regal smile 

upon my grandmother's face

a being that moves me

from consumer to conduit,

wasteful to waiting,

wanting to wonder.

but how?

how do i break free

when i hold on 

with tightly clenched fists

hands over my eyes

hair down shaking

from side to side

refusing to give up what was never

mine

to begin with

see everybody got somebody they're holding on to

gotta let it go, you

you been lied to

lied to

could it be now could it be what you're holding on to

got a hold on you

you been lied to

lied to

everybody got something that they're holding on to

got a hold on you

you been lied to

lied to

could it be now could it be what you're holding on to

got a hold on you

let it go

it go

-sharon, friend of shane claiborne, at ccda 2009

to listen to the live version check out the podcast:

matthew watts & shane claiborne: saturday evening plenary--

'simplicity: pursuing new perspectives on redistribution: ccda 2009'

released march 25, 2010
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