.29 pesky

i think what happened

is that i left it for a while

- as you do,

in a drawer

safe and sound -

expecting to come back and retrieve it when i wanted to,

as i had left it.

only when i got there

the cupboard was bare

(or, at least, the bananas had blackened

and started to make the room smell).

and it was then,

in the over-ripe air

that i realised that this isn't something that i'm supposed to put on hold.

because if i do,

it doesn't completely disappear exactly,

just shrivels up and withers into,

i dunno,

compost or something.

seen from the opposite way,

i guess the point is that

i reckon belief can't be exterminated.

feel free to disagree, but i think that once you're there,

(wherever 'there' is,)

you're there,

even when you think you're not.

and however much you try covering

and burying

and flinging into the inferno

(i sizzled a cockroach with a hot iron once - they're another good example),

you can't really get rid of it.

it's just like

those pesky kids

on scooby doo

that always foil the baddy's attempts

for world domination.

it's like nuclear waste.

eheh...